imagine losing the most important thing in ur life and knowing its gone before u lose it confused struggling a way to get it back silent tears u cant hide and screams u cant hear tragedy is a loss and loving someone is a blessing it hurts everyday i keep hoping that it wasnt my fault but what if it was every morning i took him out of his crib i could feel him a little less more each time i felt his life draining i cant count the times i would just hold him in my arms for hours wishing my love would protect him it never did hes gone i cant believe it, i dont know if ill ever accept it but ill never get over it he was everything to me i watched him go and i hate myself for it but for him its too late theres nothing i wouldnt give to have him back in my arms or even to know hes just safe and how much i love him . . .